my emergency contact

on a form
for a fun run
i wrote down
the usual

name address
date of birth
i rushed through it
male open category
twenty-seven dollars

then i stopped

after being alive
for thirty-two years
after going out with you
for one-and-a-half and
after a few seconds’ pause
for the first time
but not for the last
i wrote down your name
as my emergency contact