light from everywhere

where does darkness
come from?
pay no attention
to my shadow
it follows me
everywhere
sometimes
arriving
before i have left

am i the cause
of this darkness?
i receive the light
the warmth
but i stop it
block it
keep it for myself

what have i done
what have i become
a black cut-out
in the image
of myself
back to me
always me
happiness
on a foundation
of sadness

the confession stings
brings
release
from the pressure
of denial
until
a tear forms
and falls

i am the water
through which the light
scatters
the memories
of a thousand dreams
laughter comes without
hesitation
and finds darkness
is gone